I was driving down the road the other day and I heard a song that I have not heard in a while. The song is by FFH and it is called Lord Move or Move Me. I was reflecting on how this song is very true in my life right now as Nate and I have been seeking the Lord on a few issues and trying to make decisions for the future.
I have in the last few weeks felt that I have been standing in the middle of a room with 10 doors and they are all closed and every time I think one will be unlocked and I approach the door, it may open a little bit.. and then slams hard right in my face. I have found myself asking the Lord, please close the doors that should not be open to me, but please open the door that is right for me so that I may walk through it.
In the midst of this time of seeking the Lord and waiting for a door to open I have become a little restless in my wait. An amazing thing happened to me yesterday though. I think for the first time in my life I saw my complaining, anxiousness, and lack of trust for exactly what it is. I found myself so desperate in a situation yesterday I told the Lord that I just could not do it by myself anymore.. As soon as I heard myself think that.. I realized the stupidity of what I had said. It is like getting a free ride and then asking for your money back.
After realizing just how foolish I truly am, I immediately asked for forgiveness and freshly sought after the Lord for renewed strength, and patience. I also asked for an answer to my prayers so that I would know which direction to focus on. The crazy thing is, within 10 minutes I received an e-mail which gave me some insight into how the Lord would be moving on my behalf. I felt refreshed in the Lords grace and also a renewed strength since I realized that I was not the one fighting the battle. I was rejoicing in telling Nathan what had happened today and how I had realized truly how foolish I am. While I was doing that I checked my personal e-mail at home and realized that at the same time that I had received the e-mail at work.. I had also received an e-mail at home from someone else. Just another reminder that I may not know what direction the Lord will provide for me to move in, but that HE is in control and that HE is working.
In the words of FFH
I have in the last few weeks felt that I have been standing in the middle of a room with 10 doors and they are all closed and every time I think one will be unlocked and I approach the door, it may open a little bit.. and then slams hard right in my face. I have found myself asking the Lord, please close the doors that should not be open to me, but please open the door that is right for me so that I may walk through it.
In the midst of this time of seeking the Lord and waiting for a door to open I have become a little restless in my wait. An amazing thing happened to me yesterday though. I think for the first time in my life I saw my complaining, anxiousness, and lack of trust for exactly what it is. I found myself so desperate in a situation yesterday I told the Lord that I just could not do it by myself anymore.. As soon as I heard myself think that.. I realized the stupidity of what I had said. It is like getting a free ride and then asking for your money back.
After realizing just how foolish I truly am, I immediately asked for forgiveness and freshly sought after the Lord for renewed strength, and patience. I also asked for an answer to my prayers so that I would know which direction to focus on. The crazy thing is, within 10 minutes I received an e-mail which gave me some insight into how the Lord would be moving on my behalf. I felt refreshed in the Lords grace and also a renewed strength since I realized that I was not the one fighting the battle. I was rejoicing in telling Nathan what had happened today and how I had realized truly how foolish I am. While I was doing that I checked my personal e-mail at home and realized that at the same time that I had received the e-mail at work.. I had also received an e-mail at home from someone else. Just another reminder that I may not know what direction the Lord will provide for me to move in, but that HE is in control and that HE is working.
In the words of FFH
“I’ve looked everywhere to find a simple peace of mind.
So I gotta leave myself behind take up this cross of mine
give away everything I hold on to.
Lord I know the only way through this
Lord I know I need you to help me do this
Lord move in the way that I’ve never seen before
‘cause there’s a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I’m drifting away waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord Move… or Move me!”
